| Location | Auburn |
| Age | 20 years |
| Cause of Death | Suicide |
| Date of Birth | 03/07/1989 |
| Date of Death | 15/04/2010 |
| Visitors | 4,762 since 17/05/2010 |
| Creator |
My beloved son is gone. CJ left us so unexpectedly and so tragically. To say we are heartbroken is an understatement. We miss him with every breath we take. Life will never be the same without him. I only hope he found the peace he was looking for. Miss you more than words can say Shmoops.
Love & Light
Ohhhh my, it's been way too long since I came by to leave a message, but CJ that does not mean your dearest family is
not in my daily prayers.... They certainly are.
May angels of God be near them.
Sending
LOVE & LIGHT .... Always,
Deb
Prayers
I'm here because I care. I post what messages I do because I care.
Love
Deb @----.-----------
~ Love & Light ~
I wish I lived closer so I could visit you and HUG ya all in person....... But sharing words will just have to do.
Not a day goes by that CJ does not come to my mind. I keep him and all the family in my closest heart prayers.
Love
Deb
Love Shines *
"I did not come to comfort you; God only can do that; but I did come to say how deeply and tenderly I feel for you in your affliction."
(Tyron Edwards)
Sending loving thoughts and prayers... Always
Love
Deb
The Handsome Guy With the Winning Smile
Thinking of you, CJ. But that's nothing new. You are always in my heart and on my mind. You are infinitely missed and loved. Always.
Love from kim-d
Miss You
Every second of every day, I miss you more. I am simply heart broken. You were a gift that I took for granted. I am so sorry. I wish I had hugged you one last time. I will cry everyday for the hug I never gave you.
Mom
Dear Cj
I miss you. More than words can say. I hope you can see the amazing things your brother is doing. I hope you can see how hard we are all trying, not trying to get over this, but trying to live new lives without you. You really were the glue that held us all together.
My ringtone is Piano Man because I remember the day you told me, "Danielle, when I die, I want Piano Man played at my funeral." Well, it was not much, but I made sure that your wish came true. James Taylor was played too, and I still can't listen to any of his songs without thinking of you.
I love you boog
Our Nightly Chats
The night I found out you killed yourself after screaming down the stairs and repeating over and over and over that this can't be happening, I just talked to you yesterday, you said you were fine and excited about Texas, I went outside and collapsed on my steps. I looked up at the sky and just kept asking Why? And then I saw it...the brightest star ever and I knew it had to be you. No one had a smile like you.The brightest smile should belong to the brightest star. I stayed out there for over 2 hours talking, asking you questions, getting no answers and when I went it, I was spent but at peace. I go out every night, find you in the sky and we talk. I talk, you listen and somehow communicate back to me. I see it from both sides...I have been on your side where suicide was the only answer, I had a family friend commit suicide when I was 8 years old in the car. And I'm on this die where I see your parents, family and friends devastated. They say a little child shall lead them. You've lead us to pay more attention to our friends and family, say I love you when you part on the phone or in person and to get behind the illnesses that plague so many, many people....depression, suicide and all the others that can't be seen from the outisde but are truly felt in the inside. I finally got to make my pilgramace to Maine and kiss your urn goodbye, hug your family and see the house that was everything CJ. I still want to dial your number on my phone, text with you and listen to you tease me about Diablo. I wonder if we all were too happy with our lives, too wrapped up in ourselves and this was fate's way of getting our attention. None of us saw this coming and I used to feel guilty about that because I walked that depression crap road with you and I should have seen it but I didn't. I've had to draw a line and step over it. I am working more with people like me who are depressives, reading all I can about it and telling your story to the degree I am comfortable with, mainly that one just does not ever know what lies behind the eyes and smile of another. I will love you CJ to my dying day and I know as you promised me you will always be looking out for Michael. Help me day by day to walk the walk and talk the talk and be all that I should be.
Sharing A Song
I have sent or posted this song before, but
sending it along again in hopes it brings
peace to all who listen.
The Other Side by Don Conoscenti
(look for the small play button near the song title)
http://www.donconoscenti.com/index.php?page=songs&display=9
With Love and Prayers
Always,
Deb
NOTHINGS THE SAME...
I celebrate every one of the 20 years of your life, Ceej. You brought so much to so many and how I wish you could have known that., Your beautiful "cheesy" smile is imprinted on my heart".
Rest well, my magical grandson. I will love you everyday of my life.
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